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30.1.07
'Cause there're a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new

if anyone has this song (Love You Lately/Daniel Powter) pris pris prish send it to me! i'm too chickin'shid to limewire anything, haha! don't wanna wreck my baby, not until i've made the recovery disc anyways.. and uh, of course downloading is baaaaaad for your health. as we all know :}

and i'll let you in on a secret in exchange: ancient chinese poets have nothing better to do than getting themselves drunk and ahem, whining (PUN PUN PUN!! yayy this is FUN! >.<) too bad they dint have cheese back then. hmmm.

as you can tell, i'm on a high! i wonder why!
maybe i've had too much junk food --dark chocolates, ice cream with gummy bits, japanese black bean jelly with flecks of gold-leaf (O_O)
or maybe i'm tired of being angsty.

..yeah that could be it.

anyhows, tutored some BPSS kids this afternoon for cip! woots sooo cutes! haha but it's kinda sad, cos you can see how some of them are already becoming jaded :C it's not time yet.. and some have probably been told they're wrong so many times they've lost their confidence. ayeee.

will you just check out this Guster video! i couldn't help grinning at about 00:46 :}

Here in the present tense
Nothing's making sense

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28.1.07

Let Go and Let God
As children bring their broken toys,
With tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God,
Because He is my friend.
But then instead of leaving Him
In peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help,
With ways that were my own.
At last, I snatched them back again
And cried, "How can you be so slow?"
"My child," He said, "What could I do?
You never did let go."
Anonymous

just spent the afternoon looking through information on majors and universities at collegeboard.com :) i've decided i might as well take a leap of faith and have my SATs scores sent to

Cornell University
University of Pennsylvania
New York University
University of Southern California

only 2 from the ivy league :D 'cause it's really more about whether the schools offer the majors i'm interested in.. not that i'm confident i'm going to do well, in fact i probably wont do so well for the writing component (couldn't finish my essay! just one more sentence..GAH) but all the same, i'm going to leave it to God :)

mr b's PC pwned, chinese and math next :}

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~~saturnine~~

ok good riddance to gp paper 2 and econs essay (both of which were done horribly :{ how do you concentrate with a stomachache -- speaking of which i really need to find out the cause! is it the coffee? gah.) AND SATs! unfortunately i only have good feelings about the last item there. but it's considerably the most important of all three so AIYAH WHATEVER LAH!
anyhow, it ain't over till sunday's over. because i've got to work on math and chinese OH WHAT A SURPRISE!

no need to ask if i'd like some cheese with my whine, i'm cheesy enough myself :}

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25.1.07

ahh i'm so tired i dont know how i survived today
woke up with horrible stomachache and mum tried to make me stay home but i cant it's the day in the week when i have lessons for every single subject i take ok except pe but there's training so same difference thank god for the 1hour nap during chinese lit ehh we were watching a stupid video so its ok besides i was semiconscious enough to wake up and take notes at the more important parts
i cant wait for the microwave to beep and tell me my meal's ready
i am so sleepy javine u're right i need more sleep and while i'm at it i might as well confess i had a cup of coffee yesterday i'm sorry i know you dont wanna see me die of a heart attack
in school and at training i had no idea what i was doing and saying half the time
but its ok i made people laugh thanks peeps yawl made me feel awfully useful
ok the microwave has done its job i am going to stuff my face
bye i know it's been a horrigible time trying to read this crap :}

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ohoh and jiaolian let me try a bracsa VII today! very very light i felt like i was air-paddling just close your eyes but not for too long else you whack the paddle into the ground like i did thank god jiaolian was feeling uh generous and so i dint get told off ahhh so many things to do there's econs essay test math quiz and gp paper 2 tmr SATs on saturday omggxx my brain is saturated humanz party next saturday my mum is still refusing to let me go i am beginning to suspect she has a neck problem because she cant ever seem to nod only shakes her head i'm hoping my class wont think i'm misanthropic

..and i remember this dream. i think i did actually dream it, i'm not so sure, but if i didn't how'd i recall it right? i dreamt that God held me in His arms, i don't remember exactly what was in my dream but i knew He was there. and i knew i felt very happy. so very happy :)
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23.1.07
bear hug!

(on se console toujours)

God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.

But God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labour, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love.
Kristone

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22.1.07
don't mooch around!

"why are you wearing a paper bag on your head?"
"i want to be alone for awhile."

GRASS. ok maybe not, but still, RAHHH. all this mugging is getting to me and making me angsty! not good. if i get more chinese homework i am really going to .. uh.. WAHLER!! i CAN'T do anything about it! *sulks*

maybe i'll go around shaking my fists behind my chinese teachers' backs.
yeah, that will give me loads of satisfaction. :}

"Hein? Tu es toujours là? Cinq cent un million de… je ne sais plus… J'ai tellement de travail! Je suis sérieux, moi, je ne m'amuse pas à des balivernes! Deux et cinq sept…"

Le Petit Prince Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

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20.1.07
My Rest

my soul finds rest in You my Jesus
my hiding place amid the storm
in pastures green, You lead me down to lie
by waters still, i shall abide
by waters still, i shall abide

i shall not fear in times uncertain
i shall not look to my own strength
into your hands i place my hopes and plans
my trust is in the blood of the Lamb
my trust is in the blood of the Lamb

a crown of thorns pierced through Your temple
the blood that flowed took all my cares
what price You paid, what sacrifice You made
my life in Yours, Jesus my rest
my life in Yours, Jesus my rest.

thankyou manda for the cd :)

i love rowing in the rain. it sounds almost maniacal but when i was rowing in the rain today i had a grin on my face :) sure, the pelting raindrops stung, but i felt in control --for the first time this week-- and i knew i was safe because God was watching over me.
strike that, God is, and always will be, watching over me.
it's hard to remember every one of the huginormous amount of words i'm trying to cramp into my miniscule brain for SATs, but that shouldn't be too tough.. :)

Speed, Power and Grace. His Grace, that is.

Your way, always.

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19.1.07
you're racing for tomorrow, not finished with today

thanks jave :)

on one hand, i'm glad i'm back.
on the other, i see calluses and bruises and dried tears.

I carry a madness
Everywhere I go
Over the border
and back to the snow

So if you see me
and I look right through
You shouldn't take it
as a reflection on you

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14.1.07
what tormented heart? :D

on one hand,

Don't miss the all new Korean drama! Fish & Co is staring CheR and .. uh Dead Fish.

on the other hand,

with thus in conclusion:

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12.1.07

these few days have been somewhat crazy. i've had so much work to do and i'm not seeing the end of it yet (maybe i won't! what a horrifying thought..) :S been doing my chinese remedial homework during breaks to maximise time, and i dare say i am very proud of myself for staying on task almost all of the time this past week. the only exception being falling asleep on my math tutorial on wednesday cos i was so so so tired :} more work to be done over the weekend; i've got 2 more essay outlines to do for chinese remedial, one chinese compo, one chinese compre, plot outline & analysis for the first chapter of Fox Volant of the Snowy Mountain, A&C essay (i really should have done it during the hols.. nvm, what's, uh, undone cannot be, uh, undone..), finish up vectors tutorial 11A1, all in addition to trying to find time for SAT prep. the chinese homeworks are the absolute killers cos my teachers only assigned them in the past couple of days but we're expected to hand them in by next week, the earliest deadline being wednesday!

ayyyeee. well at least amusing things have been happening so my life hasn't been dry.. like siauxi's decided she likes to go around calling me "cute little girl", and jave's decided that the dimples that form on my shoulders when they're flexed are sexy (-.-) i have no idea what i am now, perhaps i'm not a girl, not yet a woman? :}

ohoh! and cca feste! we had this "Who is (insert random canoeist's name here)?" thing going on for our campaign. for cheR's sake i'll try to post a picture of the posters sometime cos u're prolly the only non-canoob to visit here :) anyways, ray told me today she saw a guy "clutching [my] poster possessively" AYYYEEE!! jingyi's kindly told me the name of the guy so i am pretty miffed now cos i dont know him personally and am quite sure i've never offended him.. i hope my silhouette hasn't had to endure pen/knife stabbings and that it isn't presently lying in a mangled heap in some garbage heap.. poor me. haha!

anyways, it's pouring again. i really hope water tmr wont be cancelled.. i wanna rowww!!
for future reference, let me record what happened at the last trng:

jiaolian, “你已经回来得差不多了，应该有80%这样。”
me,“yayy! 再给我一个星期”:)

and the rest of the stuff he said are going to be buried deep within my memories, to be extracted again when the going gets tough :) cos i dont think it's time to be satisfied with the status quo yet.

some dreams live on in time forever,
those dreams you want with all your heart.
and i'll do whatever it takes,
follow through with the promise i made,
put it all on the line,
what i hope for at last will be mine.

i love our team.

dare to dream, babes. not being able to realise our dreams-- that's not our deepest fear. our deepest fear is the regret that comes from knowing we havent tried, that we were afraid to give ourselves the chance to be great.

half a year from this date. you know what would be a totally awesome birthday present? seeing satisfied smiles all around me after our races. that's enough :)

"Some of the world's greatest feats were accomplished by people not smart enough to know they were impossible."

--Doug Larson

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9.1.07

my study table :) rmb, yellow helps you to concentrate! haha. aiight. i shall emerge vectorious in my struggle against vectors. oops. i meant victorious.
anyways, song of the moment, to blast in the background when u're doing math:

I am sentimental
But you dont know me at all

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7.1.07

dear God, i'm so tired. i hate letting people down and i hate not being able to make her understand.
i just pray that after all these, i may have some peace. that's all.
please?

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making collages in photoshop is a great way to vent.

in the meanwhile,

freddo says frog juice is good for you and gives it a thumbs-up.

and that thumbs up extends to our PoP ventures! ripped from elisa's blog, comments added:

But Yang my darling never fails to cheer me up! :D We accidentally bashed heads, and her forehead hurt like crap, causing her to say to me accusingly, "Headstrong!" LOL I think I really am, 'cos the middle of her forehead had this huge red patch (which looked so uber hilarious I couldn't stop laughing), and I replied, "You are RASH!" xD

Vandelisa for the win!!! XDXDXD

Then during training, we were being stupid playing with this coconut stuck in the drain. XD When it started raining in earnest, I put it at the drain where water could flow in, and then went, "Tian ling ling, di ling ling!" in parody of the TEAPOT CULT (z'ohmycrap lollll *lho*) and emptied the muddy coconut water on the ground, not realising Ray was lying right beside me on the bench. HAHA. Java was horrified, to say the least, and apparently I looked very amusing whyyyy. T___T

Today was super wet right, so of course 'twas very slippery! Yang tripped over something and went, "Ahh I slipperied!"--actually i said "i'm slippering off the bench!" lah! O_o So I followed her example and when I almost fell, I said, "Eeek I almost slippered!"

Courtesy of Yang, pundit of pun no. 1: What knot is never tight? A slipknot.
Courtesy of me, pundit of pun no. 2: What animal always falls down? The slipper lobster. But that's only if your grammar is as bad as Yang's. xD --thanks ah et, you be not anywheres betters.

HEE then I told Yang that I'd pass her a slip of paper, 'cos I'd "give you the slip." *lho* Okay, I think you all are dying of our lameness.

Oh wait, we're not done. I kept giggling to myself 'cos I thought about Lim Bo Seng. xD What happens when you run to the Lim Bo Seng memorial and lose your way? You'll be lost in limbo!

Okay last bits. In the toilet, Yang said "headstrong" sounds like the "Live Strong" bands. I replied, "Heyy, Armstrong! We're all armstrong!" and to test it out, "Yang Armstrong." Now it occurs to me, Yang Armstrong must've been very handsome. Get the pun? xD And Van happily told me, "You are FOREARMstrong!" O______o

PWNAGE TO THE MAX.

Fear us. =D

yesss. we are your greatest fear.

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4.1.07

whoots school's been great, but i'm eating too much blearghs.. having a 7-11 within the school compounds doesn't help especially when i can conveniently pop by to purchase a packet of Hershey's dark chocolate that i can consume in like 20mins (btw just to amuse elisa, who is fascinated with this kinda thing, it's 12g of fats and only 2g of protein!). that i ate today in addition to one bowl of Quakers oatmeal for breakfast, 6 nuggets (not at one go, i wasn't that ravenous, haha), one bergedil, 2 packets of papadum (is that how you spell it?), some doughy thing also from the vegetarian stall and one cup of red apple-orange juice. oh yes, and 2 bananas! it's bananas and it's all jiaolian's fault. he said the funniest thing yesterday, "why is it that you look so much thinner than before? not enough food? not enough sleep? too much pressure?" bah! i think canoeists are the only people to take offence whenever some one comments on their loss of body mass, haha!

humph. i gotta go do math now (yes, i am determined to be a good student. in fact i am so proud of myself now because i'm the only student out of 20 who has handed in her chinese lit homework! woots! take that mr l*m!). i foresee that there wont be much time for me to come online in the days to come so i'll leave you with 2 thousand words now to tide you over :}

what can i say, i had fun packing up my magazines.. :D

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2.1.07

heehee, i'll try chers, i'll try! :D but seriously i am a good student, yes? :)
and we shared another milestone yesterday: it was the second time we chatted on msn! (yes, i'm back amongst the living, cheers!) and we had a good time talking about stuff.. dramatic stuff ;P btw, i received ur letter! lol, Gid Jnr. actually has RJC03 spraypainted on it but nice try anyhow! :D and the name's spelt with an 'i' my dear, it doesnt really sound like that thing u spread on ur toast :}

anyway, school starts tmr! am i excited or what?? i've got my room all tidied up and set to last me till december! ;D something like that..

before i go, hope yawl caught the rainbow (make that DOUBLE RAINBOW) yesterday afternoon! if not, i took pictures!

the second one is to its left, it's very faint so you have to squint to see it.. but heyy now we are doubly sure we'e off to a great year ahead! :)

God said to Noah, "...I have set My rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between Me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember My covenant between Me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all
living creatures of every kind on the earth."

In this way, I believe He is telling us now, "I will not forsake you. I will be with you every step of the way - I will not leave you to die. I have given you a future and you are always in My heart."

amen, elisa, amen! :)
my dad's coming back tomorrow! yayyy! i sorta miss him.. haha. tho that means i've gotta give up my snuggly place beside mummy on their big bouncy bed :{ ayyyee! i hope he's done some shopping! :P

ps/ like what i tagged in reply to et, here's what i intended to snap before i saw the rainbow:

and i just got more links to photos from the bicultural trip! haha.. lots of shots of people, mine are more of architecture &c..

see how red my face was? i was freeeeezing!! vasodilation's the word, right? mr and_ew "zarp!" chia should be so proud :)

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1.1.07

haha these guys are seriously messed up!
..and hilarious :D

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Et toutes mes peines

Child of God. 12^th July 1989. RjcanYeist! 1/2 of Pundits of Pun. TIME Person of the Year 2006 ;) Orange! B&J's Chunky Monkey! Dark chocolates! Sleeping in on rainy days! Attention span of 600 goldfishes.

Trouveront l'oubli

Quand je trouverais l'amour

Untitled: Made this myself, with help from lj.com/fd, which in my humble opinion, remains forever awesome (again, my economics lecturer withers right down to his vegetarian roots). Oh and brushes <3.

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